I have been following the Lord all my life, and I am in a really bad place in my life, as people say the desert experience.  I have asked people to pray about a certain situation that I need the Lord to move into, that I have been praying for 15 years, that he would bring an answer, and everyone seems to agree the Lord is going to give me the Miracle I need, but honestly, I just don't believe anymore, and from a few other people that also need a simular Miracle the Lord never came through for them, so I think, why would I be any different.

I have lost my love for God over all of this, and it has turn into hate, as I feel the Lord has left me die, with no hope, for a real future.